So.. I'm sitting at the library trying to focus and get a few assignments and reading done. But what do I actually end up doing.. I end up on facebook, blogging, and wondering why?
You ask why what?
(well there is two of them)
#1
As you know I just went through a breakup. Not a terrible one either. Which is worse because I can't just be like, "I hate Jake blah blah blah..". Totally different story. I still have feelings for him. Strong ones at that. I wish I didn't have them. But I guess they will just have to fade with time. BOO. I wish they would just go away fast. All my friends keep telling me to start dating. But i don't want to..just yet. Why can't I just be like a guy and just jump into something fast and not look back. But no. I sit and wonder why did this happen to me.. and why is he being rude. why does every SINGLE thing remind me of him. songs. restaurants. words. shows. I'll think of stupid inside jokes. ill see things he gave me. pictures. you get the point. Why do guys have its so easy.. or at least make it look so easy at the whole break up thing. I am envious.
On to #2 why..Riddle me this.
This really TDH (tall,dark,handsome) male just came and sat at the table next to me here at the library. It was only obvious that when he was looking around for a place to sit he was totally checking me out. So he ends up sitting by me. Good thing I wasn't dreaming because I probably would have been drooling. (ew gross!) Seriously though he was so pretty. Dream boat I tell you. I wanted to talk to him so bad. Did I? No. Are you kidding me..I mean come on what am I supposed to say? "Hey boy my name is Lauren, you're sexy, umm. can we hang out tonight?" For reals. Okay, I would never actually say that. But why is it that we can't just go up and talk to members of the opposite sex in a friendly manner without it being totally creepy? Think about it if an extremely sexy guy came and started talking to you it would be the best thing ever wouldn't it? Point being why do we have this huge block in our brain that it usually comes off creepy or that that person is just desperate. Why can't it be normal and acceptable? It would sure make meeting people (males for me) a lot easier and fun. Plus it would make for a good story right?
I've been sitting here for about twenty minutes pondering this and cannot come up with the answer. I think were all just scared.
As you know I just went through a breakup. Not a terrible one either. Which is worse because I can't just be like, "I hate Jake blah blah blah..". Totally different story. I still have feelings for him. Strong ones at that. I wish I didn't have them. But I guess they will just have to fade with time. BOO. I wish they would just go away fast. All my friends keep telling me to start dating. But i don't want to..just yet. Why can't I just be like a guy and just jump into something fast and not look back. But no. I sit and wonder why did this happen to me.. and why is he being rude. why does every SINGLE thing remind me of him. songs. restaurants. words. shows. I'll think of stupid inside jokes. ill see things he gave me. pictures. you get the point. Why do guys have its so easy.. or at least make it look so easy at the whole break up thing. I am envious.
On to #2 why..Riddle me this.
This really TDH (tall,dark,handsome) male just came and sat at the table next to me here at the library. It was only obvious that when he was looking around for a place to sit he was totally checking me out. So he ends up sitting by me. Good thing I wasn't dreaming because I probably would have been drooling. (ew gross!) Seriously though he was so pretty. Dream boat I tell you. I wanted to talk to him so bad. Did I? No. Are you kidding me..I mean come on what am I supposed to say? "Hey boy my name is Lauren, you're sexy, umm. can we hang out tonight?" For reals. Okay, I would never actually say that. But why is it that we can't just go up and talk to members of the opposite sex in a friendly manner without it being totally creepy? Think about it if an extremely sexy guy came and started talking to you it would be the best thing ever wouldn't it? Point being why do we have this huge block in our brain that it usually comes off creepy or that that person is just desperate. Why can't it be normal and acceptable? It would sure make meeting people (males for me) a lot easier and fun. Plus it would make for a good story right?
I've been sitting here for about twenty minutes pondering this and cannot come up with the answer. I think were all just scared.
Next time I see that TDH sexy man at the Library I am going to talk to him. Because I always regret when I don't.
Lets not all be scared-ie cats okay ppl?
hugs and kisses
- Laur
PS. 3 oldies have been texting me. (aka Jason, Kurt, and Reed.) What's a girl to do? They know I am single now. WHAT do they honestly want to be the rebound?
And I'm not talking basketball.
(kidding kidding. i would never do that)
Hey girl,
ReplyDeleteI am in the SAME boat as you right now. Break ups are hard, and it's not easy to just move on. Ugh. Good luck lady! Find me a TDH while you're at it too mmmk?
I like you! and #1 & #2 are seriously so true
ReplyDelete#1. a couple months ago my bf and I ended our relationship and he had no problem not talking to me anymore. as a matter of fact he got together with his ex a couple of weeks later. hm.
and #2 is so true too. there are so many good looking guys, but if I went up to them they would probably think how weird! I know when guys come up to me I always think it's weird, but probably because they aren't very attractive...